they heard i was good , [OPEN!]

[ashleywestwood]

i can see you want me too.
so tell me if you like it.

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[Junior Fountaine]

| The Quiet One |

I decided I better go check out this place. I really just wanted to stay in my room and write some poetry or something. Why come out here and bug or get in the way. Sure I was a jock/prep but most people didn’t even think I was anywhere close. I was who I was I guess you could say. But I didn’t give a flying fluck what people said. I did what I wanted to do. No one would or could change that. Some attitude huh? I don’t know. I just didn’t care anymore. I was here to ride horses. And in my spare time I wrote poetry. I didn’t care what people had to say. But that might change. But I doubt it.

So here I was walking into the area of the tennis courts. Why you may ask? Hell I didn’t even know that answer. I was just here. Maybe just sit in the sun in the bleachers and watch the people hit a ball back and forth. Wow so fun. So interesting. I could be out riding my horse, Time. We could be practicing. But here I was. I walked into the courts and found a spot. Two girls playing tennis. Well this was exciting. But one of the girls was rather pretty. But I wouldn’t let her know that. I play hard to get. Why be like every other guy. She probably expects it. But I wouldn’t give her the satisfaction. Ha. I smiled at that thought.

[ashleywestwood]

i can see you want me too ,
so tell me if you like it.

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[/b] I grinned playfully, batting my eyelashes. Why wouldn't he want a girl like me? I couldn't think of a reason. Oh, yeah. I remembered one. And her name was Madison Carver. We had gone to grade school together, I had invited her over to my parties in middle school, but we'd gotten closer in highschool. I played the game of sabatoge oh so well. I would cut her throat before she could put her lips on Junior's.

'So why are you here at the tennis courts, Junior?' I said, extending my left leg from my hiked-up Nike tennis skirt. It was short, white, and pleated. I might as well have been at cheerleading practice. Word around here was I was up for nominations as next year's Varsity Captain. 'Talked to Madison lately?' I smiled my perfect white grin, but my eyes gave me away, supsicion gleaming from the corners.

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[Junior Fountaine]

| The Quiet One |

OOC: oh my bad lol.. Totally didn’t know that.. Anyway ya ill work that in now…

As I watched as the beautiful girl came closer to me I watched and I suddenly felt rather stupid. I knew this girl. Her name was Ashley Westwood. Her and I were very good friends. I felt very stupid now. How could I have not known it was her. Maybe the distance and the sunlight made me think she was someone else. Yeah that was it. Had to be. I gave her a shy yet sweet smile as she got closer to me. This blond bombshell always made me so .. I don’t even know. I almost felt like I was a freshman around her. That’s about as simple as I can explain it. So here she was. In all of her glory. Leaning against the fence. And calling me sexy? That I didn’t hear too often. I gave her a devilish smile. You sure you’re not talking about youself there gorgeous? I gave Ash a wink. She was so fun to play around with. Ashley was definitely up there with Madison. I have always been torn between the two. If only Madison gave a hoot about me. But something told me that there was more to this little game with me and Ashley. Was she jealous? Or was she just trying to get something just to get it? I have always wondered.

Hm. Why was I here? Good question. Oh you know, just catchin some rays. I laughed softly. I watched Ashley. She was always the cheerleader type. And I heard she was nominated for captain. That would be cool. Quite an achievement if you asked me. Then the next question Ashley asked me caught me off guard. Madison? Why would she want to now. Yeah, just a few hours ago I guess. I tried to hide the confusion and mere curiosity. I wasn’t sure I was doing such a good job. I really wanted to know what was going on. Weren’t they good friends?

[ashleywestwood]

i can see you want me too,
so tell me if you like it.

[/b] I grinned, happy that I'd suddenly come up with a nickname for him. He'd always called me Ash, which almost made me feel like I should have a couple of Pokeballs in my pocket, but ... He'd remained Junior to me. I didn't normally give nicknames to guys unless I really felt something for them. And that had only happened once before.

He seemed vaguely curious when he mentioned the girl that I knew was his crush. However, I knew nothing of his admiration. At least, not conciously. Call it female intuition, but that was probably the reason for my quickly beating heart at this moment. I knew Madison was his best friend, but as far as it went with going farther, she wouldn't give him the time of day. And I didn't blame her. Junior was too good for her, and she liked bad boys. Hey, I had my phase, too, beginning with some Johnny Depp movies on a late Friday night. The girl was crushing on one of my punk friends, R.J. Petaccia. 'Well, I know you don't play tennis, but practice is ending. Do you want to play a match against me?' I grinned, hopefully invingtingly. I would be so happy if he did.

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[Junior Fountaine]

| The Quiet One |

I watched her closely. Did I see her blushing? No. It couldn’t be. I never saw Ashley blush. At least not because of a guy. She got it all the time. It had to be just another guy saying something like that to her. I was just another guy to her. Then she looked back at me and told me I didn’t need to tan anymore. Of course I did. I wanted to be crispy. I gave her a sly grin. More of a playful grin. But I need to burn to a crisp. I’m not done yet. I smiled and chuckled slightly. June huh? That was a new one. So she had given me a nickname huh? That was new. I hadn’t been given a nickname before. But we were close friends. I did call her Ash. It was only fair right? Now I was branded. Branded by Ashley. But that thought stayed in my head.

Something told me that she knew something I didn’t. I had a gut feeling lately that with Madison… I had no chance. But what is a simple crush anyway. But why on a girl that won’t even give you a chance? I don’t know it’s just me being hopeful I guess. Sure me and Madison were best friends… but would there be anything more? One could hope. But hoping would get you now where. Should I stand around and wait till maybe one day Madison would see that I liked her? Or go out and find a girl that would actually give me a chance. I was afraid that with Maddy… I was just a brother to her. Nothing more. Nothing less. So was I too blind to see something so good in front of me? Probably. But maybe that light will guide me. Possibly. Then, Ash got me out of my thinking mode. Oh sorry. I blushed. Yeah. Just don’t kick my ass too bad ok. I do have a rep to protect. I gave her that playful smile again.

[ashleywestwood]

i can see you want me too,
so tell me if you like it.

[/b] I yelled as I fell over on purpose. I wouldn't have fallen, but I decided I'd play it up. As I laid there on the court, spread eagle, I began to giggle. The giggle turned into a very loud laugh, and the laugh into a guffaw. 'I - d-don't think you'll ... have to worry ab-bout that!' I managed to gasp in between laughs. My ankle did hurt a lot, but I was sure I was fine. I couldn't imagine how stupid that must have looked to June. My cheeks were bright red, embarassed. Hopefully he wouldn't judge me for it... And Berlington's gossip girl wouldn't see me out here?

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[Junior Fountaine]

| The Quiet One |

I had always thought about this girl and if all the rumors were true. I wasn’t one to believe first what I heard. I preferred the truth better. But was this girl a virgin or was she …. Dirty? I wasn’t one to judge. I secretly was still a virgin but other people thought otherwise. Just because of stuff that was said. But no. Junior Fountaine was still a virgin. But I wasn’t about to go and yell that out to the world. I was going to be nineteen soon and still a virgin. Great. However, I was not going to go find the next girl I saw and ask her to have sex with me. No way. I was not into the whole pressuring a girl to do that sort of thing with me. If it happened it happened. I just want it for the right reasons and with the right person. Maybe that was a bit old fashioned… I guess that was how I was. I was a guy who would open doors for girls, pull their chair out for them, that sort of thing. I guess you could call me a gentleman… but don’t let that go and ruin everything. But anywho… I walked over to the gate and walked onto the tennis court. Missing the one essential thing I needed. A racquet.

I grabbed the balls she tossed at me and then watched her run towards the net and jump over it. However she tripped it seemed and fell. I dropped the balls and ran over to her. Are you ok? I got closer and could hear her giggling. I smiled. What a dork. I rolled my eyes playfully and smiled. I don’t know. You’re just buttering me up aren’t you? I gave her a wink. I could see her cheeks going pink. Ah how cute. I then gave her a hand to get up with. My hands aren’t like a rough guys hand. They are a little soft. Hey now, just cus I use lotion, that is not a bad thing.

[ashleywestwood]

i think i'm gonna make a move,
so tell me if you like it.

[/b] I giggled. I ached a little, but I felt embarassed more than hurt. I grinned proudly as he accused me of buttering him up. I might have smiled more if I'd known what that meant... Such a dumb blonde.

The wind played in his hair with it's long fingers, and I couldn't fight the hands away. He was beautiful. I wanted to rip his shirt off right there, but I felt something deeper along with that shallow want I had for many guys. Something different, lower in my gut that was causing quite a bit of nervousness as he drew closer. He gave me his hand and I thought that was sweet, so I took it. Oooh. He had soft hands, like a baby's butt.

I pulled myself up to him, but used the strength in my arms to ram myself into his chest. I always came on too strong, but I didn't even realize it. Junior was a little more innocent than I was, so why couldn't I see that? I guess he was more perceptive too. More gentle, too, I realized, and softened my grip on his hand. 'So, June, you wanna come to my party in a few weeks?' I said, looking up at him from under my eyelashes, fluttering them. If I'd been an outsider looking in, I'd probably would have laughed at myself, so I don't know what kept his straight face there. I was way too over the top, but sadly, I didn't have a mirror in Junior's eyes, the sun was too bright. I had no clue what I was doing when it came to this flirting thing. I was actually terrible at it. What always got me the guys was my looks and slutty side, but I'd always thought it was for other reasons. Well, Mr. Junior Fountaine surely has his work cut out for him now, huh? I'd made sure of that.

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[Junior Fountaine]

| The Quiet One |

I smiled at Ash. She always made me smile. And I always tried to make her smile. But today, she was winning. I couldn’t help but laugh at when she fell. It was almost comical. Not in a bad way though. Sure I laughed at her but not in a bad way. I knew she was probably fine but I could still be worried that she twisted something couldn’t I? Was it against the rules? I shrugged off the thought. She did say she was fine. But I have didn’t believe her. But I guess I would. It was her body. She knew if she hurt or not. She wouldn’t lie to me….. Would she? I watched her as she giggled. I loved that giggle. It always brightened up my day. Oh and that smile. Gosh. But then I saw the look of confusion in her eyes and face. I almost laughed. Some blondes I tell ya. I smiled. Rolled my eyes. Never mind. Ash played the blond role very well sometimes. I gave her my hand and she took it. Her small hands took ahold of my somewhat larger hands. But even though I was a guy, they weren’t that big. Oh well. Sometimes big hands were gross. And I tried to keep my rather soft. I knew some girls didn’t like rough hands. Especially when it came to holding hands and touching their cheeks and stuff like that. Not that I have done much of that. Wink Wink.

As I pulled her up I thought maybe I pulled to hard and she came right up into my arms. Into my chest. As a reflex my arms went around her to hold her steady so she didn’t fall or loose her balance. It felt very nice to have Ash in my arms. Something felt so right about how this looked. How it felt. She fit well in my arms. And I didn’t want to let go. And then I felt her grip soften and her voice. I nodded to her question. I would be honored. I would totally go. I smiled as I saw her bash her eyelashes. She was so cute. Ash seemed liked she was lost but just doing what she thought worked. I didn’t mind it at all….it was cute. More like adorable. So Miss Westwood. What now? I gave her a sly smile.

[ashleywestwood]

i think i'm gonna make a move,
so tell me if you like it.

[/b] I muttered, so softly, he might not have been able to hear me. My voice shook. I guess I was nervous. I paused for a moment, checked my heart rate and realized that I was more than nervous. I was like a bunny running from a big, bad wolf. My heart was racing for my life because my legs wouldn't. Ah, well. I'd given up on running away from June. This was all I wanted now.

I leaned in slowly, leading the way. Maybe he didn't want to kiss me and I was pushing too hard. Maybe I should have waited for him to actually kiss me, since that's what I'd asked of him. But I couldn't wait that long. Considering how long I was taking to actually get down to it, I darted in faster. My lips crashed in with his, passionate at first, but slowing down. Yes, I'd thought this was going to be one of those 'take it too far' kisses, making me hot and bothered. Not at all. It easily slowed down to a very slow, sweet pace. My heart raced faster and I didn't feel any better kissing him. I was still terribly nervous. Like I'd just poured out my heart, leaving all the contents on the floor for him to see.

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[Junior Fountaine]

| The Quiet One |

I don’t know why I liked the feeling of this girl in my arms but it felt good. Like it was ment to be. I held her tight, I didn’t want to let go. That was the last thing on my mind. I felt Ash bring herself closer to me. In a way I really liked it. But right now, the only thing on my mind was her being in my arms. She didn’t make me feel awkward in any way. Heavens no. I wasn’t a guy that would do anything with any girl. I was actually more distant with other girls. Lately I had gotten even closer to Ashley then I ever thought I would. I wasn’t saying I didn’t like it. No way. I really liked it. I just hoped she would take it slow with an amature like me. But I was glad this was happening. I just wanted her to be real with me. No games. That was the last thing I wanted, when I had these feelings for her. I didn’t want to fall for someone if all they thought of me was another guy. I hoped and wished this wasn’t like that. It didn’t feel like that anyway.

I waited for the girls response. What did she want to do now? I was very curious to what she would say or come up with. I wasn’t really sure what she would say. More tennis, go for a walk, go back to her place, who knew. But I hoped she knew that was not going to be a toy. I was not to be played with. I wasn’t quite sure I was actually shocked at what Ash said. I tried not to look stunned. I didn’t know she would want that. A kiss huh? Interesting. Oh really now? I gave a mischievous grin. I could barely hear her when she said it but I did. I had pretty good hearing. At first I wasn’t really sure if that was what she said. I was intrigued by her voice. It was shaky and nervous. She seemed like she had never asked such a question. I smiled. And then I saw her leaning in towards me. Now I was getting nervous. Great. So much for staying calm. I took a quick deep breath and then our lips came together. It was forced at first it seemed and then we both settled down and relaxed. Or at least I did. Her lips were soft and supple. It felt amazing being able to finally kiss her. I had dreamed of this moment. And it was finally happening. I put my hand up on her cheeks and then one slid to her neck. Gentle of course. I wasn’t even thinking and then I added a little tongue in. I hoped she didn’t mind. I was getting into it. But I didn’t want to be forceful. I kept it soft and slow. Passionate. I then pulled away and gave her a sweet smile. How was that?

[ashleywestwood]

i think i'm gonna make a move,
so tell me if you like it.

[/i] His voice was the sweetest sound to my aching ears, but I let them bleed and turned away. Tears began to roll down my cheeks as I made the awful realization. I was in love with Junior. I had fallen head over heels for him and broken my heart because there was no way anybody would ever love a girl like me who had already given everything she had to other boys. I had nothing left. I felt like an empty shell of a girl, worth only the looking at, but would anyone want what was inside? Of course not, because there was nothing there.

'I can't do this June.' I murmered softly, staring at the tennis courts. I shook my head of blonde curls and felt teardrops sliding down the front layers. My eyeliner was bluring in a thick mess, and I could hardly see anything through the black mess. I wanted so badly to stand up, wrap my arms around him and say yes, I could do this. I wanted to have him hold me again and beg him to take me home. I wanted to fall asleep in his arms, under the sheets of my warm bed, but never have done anything less than innocent. I wanted to hold his hand and help him through every situation he was being put through at the moment, but I couldn't. Because I was the one who was messing this whole thing up right now. June hadn't done anything.

Still, I was terrified of commitment. How could I be with June if I loved him? And so early in the game, too. There was no way he loved me. I wasn't smart, but I knew that it was wrong to be having such strong feelings for a person after only kissing them moments ago.

I pulled myself up on weak legs and made my way across the tennis courts, my heart shattering again and again with every step away from him. I knew he wouldn't chase after me, it wasn't like June. He'd probably stand there dumbstruck for awhile and consider me a lost cause. He had girls all over him, and why not? He was adorable. My heart ached as I thought this. I wanted to kiss him again so badly. I picked up my tennis racquet and bags before exiting the courts and running to my car. I didn't look back once.

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[Junior Fountaine]

| The Quiet One |

I held onto Ash as she sank down to the ground. I didn’t want her just falling. What was wrong? I looked into her eyes and it looked as if she was confused and sad. Was it my fault? What had I done? I soon got nervous. What if this was all a game. She just felt bad for doing it. But it couldn’t be. I had butterflies in my stomach. I was scared. Yes I said it. I was scared. I had these feelings for this girl that I had never had before. She made me feel like I was a boy back in grade school. But her reaction to the kiss shocked me. It was like she thought it was a mistake. Was it? So many thoughts were going thru my head as I was still barely holding onto her. When we were kissing it was so amazing. Like a first kiss all over again. Fireworks were going off. Stars were falling. It was like a dream. So what was wrong? Why did she act this way? I didn’t know what to do. I just stood there. Waiting for her to say or do something. I was helpless.

After I asked her how it was she turned away from me. Ouch, that hurt. I no longer had a smile on my face. What happened? What did I do that was so wrong? I was speechless. What was I suppose to do? Ash was crying and it had to be my fault right? I gently let go of her and just stood there like a statue. Her actions were hurting me deep down. But I tried to hide my emotions. This girl that I was in love with obviously didn’t want me for that. Did she feel bad for using me? Her best friend? I was just another guy to add in her book of guys. But why all of a sudden? Everything was so good. It was going to well just a few minutes ago. But Ash’s attitude changed. And I still hadn’t figured out why. I wanted to comfort her. Make her stop crying. I hated seeing girls cry, especially Ash. She would come to me after some guy was a jerk to her and I would let her cry on my chest. I was here to comfort her. But for some reason, I could not do that right now. I felt that. I was the cause of this now. I was still lost of why but I knew it. It had to be me. I just stared at her. I wanted to hold her. But something was holding me back.

And then I heard those dreadful words. I can’t do this June.

[/b] My heart sank. I just hit rock bottom. I just came crashing down. I watched Ash as more tears flowed down her cheeks. Her makeup smearing and running. I knew her, she didn’t like that. But she just let it happen. No efforts to even clear it. I just stood there. I was frozen. I tried to speak but nothing came out. I… I paused. I don’t understand. I didn’t know what else to say. I was lost. I just wanted her in my arms. I wanted her to sleep in my arms and I just watch her all night. How peaceful she looked. If she had cute snores. If this wasn’t happening right now, I would have laughed at that. But I didn’t. My face was numb. My heart was numb. I felt like my heart was just stepped on. What was happening? Why was she doing this? I thought this was what she wanted.

Oh June. You fell for another girl. You let her get to you’re heart and then step on it. You let you’re feelings get ahead of you. You weren’t thinking. But I knew all of this. But for some reason I thought it might be real this time. Boy, was I wrong. I actually fell in love with Ashley and look what happens. I finally thought I found a girl I could be happy with, and it all comes back in my face. I told you so. I wanted to show her that I didn’t care that she was with other guys. But how she made me feel. I didn’t care about her past. I just cared about our future. Oh how I just wanted to tell her I loved her. But it was too late. Her feelings for me were now more it seemed.

I watched her stand slowly and start to walk away. I didn’t go after her. Something held me back. Told me it was a lost cause. I wanted to yell at her and tell her I loved her. So bad. But again, I didn’t. She apparently wanted nothing to do with me anymore. That beautiful sweet girl I fell in love with just walked away. Never turning back. Never looking back to get one last look of the guy she just played. It much just be her way of moving on. My heart sank so hard. It was in my gut. I felt sick. And then she was gone. Out of sight. Oh how I wanted to cry. Cry so hard. I didn’t care anymore. The one good thing I thought I had in my life was gone. Our friendship apparently over. I would go on with my life not knowing what love was. So far, my thoughts of love were wrong. So wrong. There wasn’t love anymore. There was nothing. My life was over. I would go on with no emotion in my heart. My heart was cold and torn. Never again would I let a girl trick me into falling for them. Never again.
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[` carter alyssa westwood]

Aww. This was so sad. It made me want to cry, haha. Kay, post finished. We'll get a move on with the plot now. (: Start plotting for June and Ash's relationship - because it's gonna be freaking amazing.